"Is this Running?" and Ten Notes For Idaho

 PREAMBLE

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These are about ten pages of lined papers that I have been taking notes on for the past month. Ideally, I would be able to directly scan these pages, but this is not possible for now. The family household has chosen and obtained a worse printer than the previous one. Nothing like moving from a long-lasting printer that's soldiered on for over a decade with a rickety All-In-One plastic kludge. This is mere digression.

Since scanning is not possible, I will instead transcribe with eyes from paper to digital. While nowhere near possible to transplant it, some stuff can be embellished by way of font changes, boldings, and italics and whatnot. Religious content is more or less the big through line, with the first part coming as a preliminary. This has also got some personal topics streaming through.

Now that this is out of the way, the writes.

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Is this Running?

 Gel pens are odd. Might also be called 'rollerballs', I believe. They are pens in the same vein as 'ballpoints': cheap to manucature, and commonly disposable.
  A notable distinction between these two forms of common pens, is the very liquid used to write. A ballpoint pen (like the BIC Blue pen I am using at this moment) has rollingball tip at the 'nib down' position. nxlu The roller is attuned to a stricter, more firm give of hand pressure needed. Because of the stronger forced needed just to put a writing utensil to a sheet of lined paper is unnecessarily exhausting or straining. This strain g doesn't come from nowhere, as I've been using ballpoint pens for over a decade of my life now. Elementary, Middle, High School, or unemployment, hand strain has always been a constant factor. A theory is that left-handedness requires an extra effort. The reasoning is that as more force is expended, writing in time with multiple constant minutes, literu the wrist & fingers become more strained. This rollerball is currently used on this sentence the previous sentence fragment.

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"2019: "Love Never Fails"!"

 'Love never fais while oneaan oh no no no loving while uh under tough trials & hdlbnpr
Hon cam: ma The
lol lslj Genesis 37: 2-11; 18-36
1 John,      These notes are a mess
Phil. 12:4,             oh no
Philligighs 1:9,    Prov 31:30
Mistrust of worldly knowledge. All examples given all examples of Collective Individualism. The forms of  beldengn television serials, tentpole, movies are all passive Spectacle.
E E [PJr voice] Imagine my shock.
God love walkthrough: love jesus to love god & loves requires following the words. Obey == love John 13:34 'a statement/commandment'

  Still not conclusive on the state of the annual conventions. Every day for these gatherings makes me contemplate the lives & processions, routines in other christian churches. Words. Words that change with a shift in seasons and weather. With or in speed of the surrounding of what uhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Spiritual Nourishment J [Incoherent block of black] physical nutrition.

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2wo (2) [Two]

This is a rollerball pen // \\\\/\| /_\
This is a rollerball pen     finestip
  This is a gel pen [Initials] 
                              woah...
Yet in the same oratory or lecture based  turn of the verbal word. 厼 厼 厼 厼
People attemt to restored. 厼 厼 厼 厼
The stories cannot be a cure all 厼 for the sense or scoles of conflict. This is more than just
   When you try to explain science but only |||||
watched ten minutes of "Cosmos". I need |||||||||
to read the cryptochamomile audio file, ||||||||||
that would be genuinely interesting. All of the science clips are essentially recycling middle school biology. The narrator is just stating facts with minimal context and say "god's not dead 2". Congregation protection receiving disciple time zone anti-fragile by Taleb and the LessWrong Click. I can't tell if the final lecture is being screencasted from the other side makes it better or worse...
The stage is completely empty. I am steadily running out of inab ink for the pen. This may be a side-effect from the amount of ink that has been spilled on this very website called Reality. 

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 3 (III) [Three]

//..// The story of Idaho is not the most well-historied. Much in the spirit of Oregon's early history, it can be reasonably shot & predicted as the case of 
European settlers come to less clustered & dense land. While I may have not read "Settlers" yet nor lived in Idaho for multiple consecutive years, this can be correlated from the history of the other states. Is the history of states so isolated that all & every region's actions && telling graan for the sense of flcr.' Many things from American History do not occur in vaccums of choices, descisons and livlihoods.//..//

   Respek your elders for the Real Ones!!!
New family, New Skin, for New Light and New mindsets. We need the JW braintrust.
"Display Unfailing Love in the Ministry": Foreign Residents. Support The Fugees. Leviticus 19:34; Romans 15:7
Step 1(uno) (one) - Have an empathy, man!
Step 2 (dos) (two) - HDo an Assistance
Step 3: Spiritual Support          "Open ur heart" crush 50
Step 4: spend time & resources                sonic adventurer

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IV (good interval btw) (4our) [4] {four{}

Challenge 0: Chip's Challenge
Challenge 1: The Shutterfly-Fluttershy Pipeline
- something about Jeremiah & Jonah
- further misreadings & judgings of Live And Death, "literally on Death Row" and vocal banalities. You are not a Great Prophet. You are not The Most Important Mediator of Jerusalem. Your mame name is Jared, working an AMC Theater. The showings for the new "Ben-Hur" movie have brought in nobody. Having a melty in the singular space on area does not have the same magnitude in or martyrdom* or classical heroism of death on the line.
Challenge 3: "Ima tired" - Mario, Mario 64 (N64)
- something abt literal & physical tiredness, as well as spiritual exhauston
- the parent gets mad w/ road rage in the city streets
- Paul and the jailer more like Idah Ishia Isaiah and the dissenters
- "I'm not interested" but the person is yelling LOL
-  Wanna play some Outer Wilds/Worlds man
- Wonder what "3Dtestosterone" will end up beings. Is it a Worlds.com successor? Active Worlds? Talkworld?

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V (5ive) (Five) the Dominant interval in functional harmony [5]

- LoL 808 trap snare Like a cowbell ///// [Initials]
   Isaiah16
- hey uh..... I will try this page right handed
- "baptism is like marriage the braintrust Mensa led discourse ssssssssssssssssssss super yeah
- 🎓tassel for cornet and viola. see the enclosed in a superstructure what? cursive cursive cursive cursive a a a j a Can there be a single asset of ambidexterous writing wwwwwwww a q aaaaaapaaaaaaagaaaaaaand were back. Oh no. Orgn Organization now interviewing a African branch members. The subtitles are too small to read, and their accents are too thick to hear easily. And here comes the marimbas. Feels like my brain is starting to fry from the sheer weather & time elapsed. From attempting to write with my right hand, to imt intermittently move towards cursive momentsl yeah, moments with cursive. Okay right hand time now. Now that the presentation (read: haur-bug hour-long JW Broadcast) is over for now. My right hand now hurts like nothing else today. While it was mildly annoying earlier today,

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VI

- 'sip yes]
- How many things are lost in translation with these multinational examples?
- The historical drama had dramatization, but with an awkward chimera of 'christian cinema' and a level of wooden-ness.
- 🎶Shattered Dreams🎶
- 3,990 in attendance

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- the soundstate of the area has a notable HVAC noise that runs behind & above the seating. The speaker has enough treble & volume to hear the mass reverberation. There is enogh enough reflections to bring the ground floor speakar speakers to the horizon edge, to a metal-shredding feedback, heavily on the higher end.
- An ocean of conversation surrounds a person. The number in wording words d become so dense as to collapse upon itself, generatin this noise. White noise, blue noise, pink noise, some sort of generative noise, is what it most resembles. Bit But one can still hemr sense of voices in the terms of fragments. If one has seen the power of granular synthesis, it can be understood in their manner.

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VII

- can't do a 'rude ledger'
- "Jew's Rock!" vs "Gay 4 Jews" Celebrity Boxing Match for epic comedy gold
- [An abstract sketch of a disembodied head floating in emptiness]
                [ironyguy voice] "hope is cope"
              hehe p cope *5 posts later*
        3             "fellas, is love a cope?"
1 Cor. 13:7 lovegift
(Ps 119:165) "Great peace have those who love your law; nothing can make them stumble" (NRSV) Future plan to see an explanation of Psalm 119's length.
- when you don't realize the meaning behind "single point of failure"
- "love never fails"
- bad water salination analogy
- Stereolab w/ 'Intermittent Burst of Skits'
- Introduction with lip-service to Information Age, all examples from before even ARPANET existed
- Vietnam War, American & Vietnamese soldiers each
- entire clip lasts less than a miere minute
- "love or hatred of other people == children of the devil"
(1st John 2:15-21)
- Even more of jaming jamming a square peg in a round hold so hard that it gets permanently lodged inside the insides.
"Love unique to God" homosecks confirmed for true christians

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VIII

t. 'love trump's hate'
(Matt. 6:14-15)Random-Noise Transient Noise-Skit Bursts With Announcements
- Living. Growing up as a Jch in a family of Jehovah's Witnesses is much like a house on the outer edge of the 10 or 25 year flood zone. And because the group surveying flood potential has lost more budgetary expenses and ventures every year, the numbers have ma been out of date for far-out longer there has been an increasing amount of water damage. For the disintegrating foundations all that is done is merely dollops of expired buckets of Bondo. The cracks appear filled and hardened at the most peripheral vision, but even the a more firm-than-usual examination showed purely a cosmetic change.
- One could send the organization-made films to multiple film critics, from columnist to amateurs. Could argue for their unique element or quality.
  - le ripped garments
      - Can be distilled to 'religious talkies' or 'Lifetime Family Movies but for JWs'
- God Forgives even over 9000 times
    - Clip about Love ends with sudden FBI raid & ded

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IX

- Hey remember when the Footboots from the Book of Daniel stood for Britain and the USA? Or was it the US and the Soviets? uhhhh America and the European Union? How about China? India? Nigeria? idk lol man
- Al Gore didn't create the internet, Daniel did.
- 1,890 attending from screencast talk
- 5-6k baptisms (just ignore the retention rate guys)
- IMSAD
- Im T A new song was played & I am shaken to the core. This literally sounds just like CCM, right down to the aggressively digital multitracking. This is *NOT* the same organization I was raised into. This is the fuel that disillusionment is made of.

4,175 attended. Idaho
20 baptized.

  The past five to ten minuters have been the most truest out-of-body experience. Every year continues to slide down the quantic chute fom from this contemporary hellzone or clown world, whichever one chooses, if you will.

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X

  It's been a week since the convention event. The mind shas been stuck on the last minutes of the event again and again. Is this what the Governing Body truely wants? Is this what all 6 million to 7 million publishers really want? Like the Roger Waters album cover, is this the life we really want? Is this what the grand Judeo-Christian god really wants? Nev H The last time my soul was this crushed and drained of hope was when the Grey Book re-retranslation was revealed. V Every chance that I've been majority conciouss of since a the earliest of adolescence, has been a net negative after that. And This was before I was anywhere near entrenched in the online world.

  I have some soul-searching to do now. The JW Organization isn't getting any more helpful now, and shasn't been. At this point of my spiritual life now, I am on my own now. My next step (beyond a simple job) is to visit a majority churches where I am residing now.

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(Thank you for reading.)